Anxious Mama Bear

The closer we get to Mother's Day, the clearer it becomes that I am in over my head. Way over my head. I want to know:
-How to get a child to gain confidence, I am finding that it is not something that can be given to him.
-How to enjoy one of my child's success without aching for his sibling to have equal success.
-Why didn't I live a raucous and reckless life before I had children? In this way, I feel as though I have always been a serious and intense person, to the degree that I don't know how to rest.
-How to labor out of rest and not just run and run on fumes and then give out completely.
-How to support them without smothering them.
-How to love them and still wean them.
-That for sure, that these kids will be okay. That they'll all end up okay.